Peter Pan

If my hands could magically heal every cut and bruise sprinkled on your body, I would give you all my life's energy. But it's your clumsiness that gives you your stories that are always told to me with your boyish grin. And I absolutely love your up-to-no-good smiles. Every moment with you is a journey to the second on the right and straight until morning.

You are Peter Pan to my Wendy Darling and I always worry that I'm too Wendy Darling to your Peter Pan. Will my seriousness chase you into hiding? Your fears of adulthood is too real and mainland for the both of us to find solutions to. What is a university degree worth if nowadays everyone has one and that means a no longer guaranteed employment? How are we to feed our always unsatisfied hunger? Or our lust for beautiful things? I wish we could stay in your hideout forever and only emerge to waltz with the pixies.

If my hands let you go, would you be happier being able to chase "Indians" and fight pirates than spending afternoons napping in bed with me?

Start of 2014

So 2013 finally came to an end and I was a little sad to let it go. I met so many wonderful and inspiring people last year. Strangers who became friends, colleagues, team mates and special ones. I hope I will continue meeting such people this year too.

I learnt a lot last year and I hope from those lessons, as always, that I've become wiser and smarter in my decisions. I hope that I will always remember my past so I will remain humble and motivated to work hard for a better future. 

Last year's mantra was to chase after the things I want. This year, my mindset is to stay dedicated and motivated. Start what I plan to start and finish what I started. 

Happy New Years!!

Motherhood

Today, I read an article about being a woman and being a mother in the modern age and I can't help but feel overwhelmingly terrified. I want to be a good mother. However, I also want to work. I want to have a career and the time to fulfil my dreams. I don't want being a mother be my only identity. But I don't want to neglect my children. I want to always be there when they need me. I want to watch every moment of their development. I keep on wondering, 'Will I be a good mother?'

I think (from the experience of half-raising my brothers), that being a parent will always be difficult. That we won't always be correct and there will definitely be mistakes made. And despite always having our child's best interest in mind, the result won't always end up good. I just hope that my children (my brothers included) will grow up and become decent human beings who are considerate of others.

After so much thinking, I remember I'm 22. And these thoughts are quite early but 22 isn't that young either. I have to think about the future. The future is both terrifying and exciting.

Beginning

Dear Dreamers,

I am starting this new blog to move on from my old blog which I've kept for nearly 4 years now. I feel like it's about time I moved away from my old blog. I would like this blog to be more thought provoking and emotionally stirring. I hope to be able to share thoughts about matters that are important to me such as family, relationships, health and science. This blog will be a place to share my observations of the world and how I respond to them.

Hopefully, you will enjoy my whimsical thoughts.


Love,

Lucy